Yes I've finally got some new uploads...not many, but some.

I feel as though I've been slacking lately on my photography...I haven't picked up either of my camera in about a week...!?!?!?!? Crazy I know right.

I can't fully explain it...I just don't 100% feel like me lately.

I have like no intrest to do anything lately...Its almost as though I'm just going through the motions of my daily routine lately but like I'm not really me...as though I'm watching myself go through the motions of my daily routine from somewhere else...like I'm watching someone else as me.

I donno...maybe I'm just in another weird funk...Lately I have so many thoughts in my head I can't even begin to process them all. I talked to Alan for a bit last night about some of it, which helped some.

I haven't been to class in about 2 weeks which is NOT good. I'm hoping I pass the class. I've decided I'm not going to take classes next term...After graduation last June I just can't get back into the swing of classes. Its bad. I need to. Its the weird funk I'm in...and the worst part is...no one can snap me out of it but me.

I wish it were summer again, so I could go camping again to Clear Lake. Oh how much I miss it there.

I've been missing grandpa a lot lately...And with the holidays coming up it is even worse. I'm forgetting his voice and what he looked like already. Like I did with grandma. I keep trying to get grandma in my dream...but she wont come.

I need a day off...I need to e-mail Joan (my old Supervisor at the Woodstock Library) and see if I can come in and volunteer for a few hours one day...I need the woodstock library...there and clear lake but since I cant get to clear lake Woodstock Library will do...I need some place where I feel at home. I need my escape back. I hate living so far from the Woodstock Library.


Okay thats all.
Sorry this turned into a slight rant...this is something I'd usually post on myspace...but lately my exs mom has been apparently reading all my blogs that I post to my ex and his girlfriend...so yeah.